The ‘mug list’

 

   If you are virtually active in today’s world, chances are you must have heard the word ‘bucket list’ more often than expected. Though this word is part of our vocabulary since several years in the past and has nothing to do with the essence of modern times, it did not receive much popularity back then. With increasing influence of social media, higher exposure on internet and easy means of traveling as compared to the yesteryear, ‘bucket list’ is back on track. But bucket list is not about travel alone. For those of you who are still clueless about this bucket list, let me frame my version of definition.

Bucket list (noun): List of unique experiences that one desires to accomplish (at least once) in their lifetime.

    This can include any and every experience that one believes to be interesting – traveling, activities, adventures, daring tasks or simply any desired dream. While bucket list runs in the future tense as it is something you hope to do down the line, many people choose to make a reverse-bucket list. This reverse list includes all the once-in-a-lifetime experiences that one has already accomplished in their journey so far.

   But, what is the relevance of this bucket list in my blog post? Or why this sudden spread of knowledge about bucket and reverse bucket list, when the title says something else? While looking around at nature and drawing inspiration for my next blog post (because that is what bloggers do), I came across the idea of framing my reverse-bucket list. And naming it as ‘mug list’ was just my idea to give it an interesting name. Let me clarify there is no such word in the dictionary, before you grab one with the hope of finding it. While ‘bucket’ is something big you wish to do in the coming years, ‘mug’ is what you have already done before. Hence, I shall present my mug list or reverse bucket list filled with unique experiences that make them truly special.

   My aim shall be to talk about some of the best moments and adventures so far. Each of these experiences that have been accomplished in the past qualify to enter into the list based on their uniqueness and joy. This mug list will be featured as a series, with one experience every week. While I frame my list and take you to the world of my experiences, I will love to know about your list too. Do send your reverse bucket or mug list with some of your memorable adventures to relive its joy again. Though I do not do pasts or futures to make the most of present, my aim is to extract happiness from their memories. I do not intend to live in the past, but I definitely hope to enjoy that smile, once again.

  Before I begin, let me clear the coast with a declaration. Pardon me if some of my larger-than-life experiences may seem little or usual to you. That is the reason why mug list or bucket lists are meant to be customized as per one’s interest. What may seem interesting to me may come across as a usual task for you, hence kindly take it with a pinch of spice!

  Sit back, relax, read and rejoice as we enter into the series of my ‘mug-list’, one sip at a time.

Sip 1:  Experience of watching advance movie screening for review as part of the press

    After writing reviews of 65 low-budget movies and documentaries for close to two years now, I was surprised with my new-found interest towards entertainment. While watching these movies as private videos on the humble screen of my laptop, the experience was nowhere close to a big screen. Hence, when life threw the opportunity to review a commercially successful movie ‘The Hitman's Bodyguard’ inside the theater, I could not contain my excitement.

     Attending advance screening of a movie is no big deal, it is possible to grab this opportunity as a regular viewer too. But, what made this experience unique was my interesting role in the same. Instead of watching it as one of the movie-goers, I was viewing it as a movie critic from press. Seeing my name on the press-list gave me three complete seconds of fame, at least in my head! With reserved press seats and responsibility of writing an honest review, this experience was definitely one of a kind. Besides, mandatory switching off of cell phones coupled with frequent rounds by the security made it absolutely unique.

  While this opportunity was truly enjoyable, taking my husband along and bragging about it for days on end posed as cherry on the cake. A fan of action-comedy, when my husband was able to watch an advance screening as part of the press, he was equally thrilled. While he was excited to watch a much anticipated movie, I was delighted to be able to show-off! After all how can one lose the opportunity to remind a husband about his star-wife? So much was the fun in this self-bragging episode that after the director of movie liked and re-tweeted my review, I announced my decision to move to Hollywood, LA! But apart from the jokes and fun in bragging about this unique opportunity, the experience was truly memorable.

    Though it was just a small opportunity, it truly meant something different. It is during moments like these when you realize that there is so much to life than the usual routine. Though the review was just another piece of my writing, the experience was totally fulfilling.

   It is rightly said that one must measure their life not by years, but by the number of unique experiences. Such moments bring us closer to the real joy of being alive. Bucket or reverse bucket lists are not just about traveling to overrated exotic locations or participating in adventurous activities. You do not need long vacations, heavy budget or enormous fortune to bring your list to life. Those overrated contents are good for creating some buzz on social media. What you really need is a desire to seek happiness in your unique moments.

  Think about your mug-list and let us sip this fun together. Till I return with my next post, keep smiling, keep enjoying, keep sharing and yes, keep reading!

P.S: The movie was really amazing and we enjoyed it thoroughly. You can find my review here (pen name: Lavanya) http://redcarpetcrash.com/movie-review-hitmans-bodyguard/ 

Dear Husband - It may be a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity. Do not be hopeful about watching every single movie from the never-ending list you gave me last evening. 

‘Mind’ matters

   

    Back home, everyone is geared to celebrate the most beloved day of the year. A day that marks freedom for our country, Independence Day means a lot to each one of us. And hence the blogger in me could not resist the temptation of featuring this ‘freedom’ in one way or the other. But, this is not a conventional patriotic post to talk about our country. I am about to use this ingredient of freedom in a unique, offbeat recipe.

      While last year, I blogged about the meaning of being free in today’s progressive society, this year I plan to do something different. This post will talk about freedom of ‘mind’. Independence to that little fellow who is seated in each one of us. Through the post, I want to communicate with our minds and urge it to be free. I want to tell this mind to stay away from any preconceived notions or judgments. I want this mind to enjoy every experience with open arms. I want to request this mind to untangle itself from any long chain of thoughts and be alive in the open. I want to urge it to stop holding onto the past or jumping into the future. Indeed, a long list of ‘wants’….

   Our mind is nothing less than a dynamic factory, churning millions of thoughts day in and day out. A workshop of thoughts, emotions, feelings and ideas, it is truly hardworking in every way. But do we really take care of this factory in an efficient manner? Are we able to be friends with it and enjoy its presence? Are we able to let it wander in a free style, yet control it for our own good? Are we above our minds or is our mind above us when we drift away into an endless sea of thoughts? Do we control its actions and reactions or do we let it command over us? And finally, what does it mean when we say ‘our mind’ is free?

  So many questions but no fixed answers. With this post, I do not want to push you into some philosophical maze, while you struggle to find your way out. But, I wish to talk about this significant ‘player’ in our lives. A lot is said about mind, but it is one such aspect of our lives that cannot be defined in any clear terms. Each one has a different opinion about what mind means to us or what mind does to us. 

     According to one of the lessons in Bhagawad Gita, mind can be our greatest friend or it can be our worst enemy. The choice to make it our friend or enemy lies in our hands. We can either choose to be with it and treat it as a fellow mate or we can allow it to control us, making us an aimless follower. If we decide to go with the latter, we realize that mind is able to make us dance to its tunes. Slowly, it captures our thought process completely and forces us to act the way it wants us to.

   That does not mean, mind decides bad for us. By staying optimistic, we can ensure flow of good thoughts. Or by practicing meditation, we can experience positive vibes. But, let’s be honest with ourselves. Is it possible to have such strong control over our minds that it shall not drift away at the first possible opportunity? It will be incorrect to talk on your behalf and forcefully include you in my club, while I share my beliefs. 

    No matter how many tons of patience, optimism, happiness and peace I order and purchase for this little friend, they always fall short. And hence at the next available opportunity, it runs to grab negativity, judgments, anger, hatred or irritation. It starts to behave like a small child who demands and prefers chocolates and candies over nutritious food at home. This makes it essential to train our minds for our own good always. Unless we learn to cut our thoughts at the right time, it is impossible to expect any external help. Mind will always do what it does best- think, think and overthink. But it is up to us - either we entertain it or reject it.

  We allow it to be ‘hurt’ easily. But what is this ‘hurt’? It is nothing but fragment of our imagination. Just because someone opposes us or disagrees with our opinion, we are ‘hurt’ with their differences. Or if someone choose to lace their words with anger, we are ‘hurt’ by their behavior. When things do not go our way, we are again ‘hurt’ by the entire experience. In each of these aspects, you will realize that being ‘hurt’ was your choice. It was not enforced. 

    What others think about you or how they treat you is none of your concern. Hence, it is essential to free our mind from such useless thoughts that yield no output. We can sit for hours thinking about a bad experience or how someone treated us incorrectly. But will that change the past or improve the future? Rather, we must urge our minds to embrace freedom. That does not mean, we can let it wander aimlessly. It simply means we must free it from unnecessary thoughts and engage it into productive work.

   To conclude, I will write an open note to this mind, after all it is our dear friend.

Dear Mind,

 Hope you are doing well. We talk so much about you but never to ‘talk’ to you. Hence I chose to write this short note.

Thank you for your presence, your positive vibes, your concentration and determination.

Sorry for not stopping you at the right time, while you wander around in judgments, criticism, hatred and anger.

I promise to take good care of you and request you to be free. Be free from the need to behave in a certain manner and enjoy yourself thoroughly. Take care of your needs and learn to walk away when the atmosphere starts to choke you. Learn to keep your room clean and get rid of all incorrect thoughts. And lastly, enjoy the experience of ‘minding’ me!

Yours truly,

A well-wishing body!

…because haste may lead to waste

 

    At the beginning of this post, I want to start by admitting that it is difficult to praise your spouse openly. And if the age gap is just one year with enhanced essence of friendship, it becomes more difficult. Yet, I will be doing just the opposite and making a sincere attempt to talk good about my better-half. But, why this sudden appreciation and affection? Well, because the topic of this post is completely inspired by my husband’s approach in life. For a person who believes in performing every task with patience, silence, dedication and determination, this title is borrowed from his diary of thoughts.

  So much is his insistence towards a calm and detailed approach that it even reflects in his long bathing sessions. But I will save that piece of humor for some other post in future, when I am tempted to dig into some fun. Coming back to the title, I always believed in performing all my tasks at a fast pace to accomplish more within a day. For me it was more about quantity than quality. And I must admit this approach may tend to change the overall prospective towards life. In the race to do more, I was tempted to finish a task without looking at the end result or the manner of work. Haste to do a job may often lead to a waste product as the focus is more towards getting something at the end - somehow or anyhow.

    Rather, if we learn to enjoy the process and concentrate on it with complete attention, we can definitely obtain happiness. My transition towards a non-haste approach was not an overnight process. I had my share of arguments where I insisted about the lack of time or more activities in the plate. But that is when I realized, it is not about how much time we dedicate to each task but about what approach we adopt for that little duration. Hasty approach forces us to compromise on the end product, making it a default style forever.

    This unknowingly turns into a habit that reflects over our attitude. I am always amazed at my husband’s dedication towards his work. Be it simple act like watering the plants or doing the dishes, his approach bends towards soaking himself completely into the experience. My inclination tends to fall over multi-tasking, while his style is towards one single task at a time. In today’s fast pace world, it may not be possible to adopt a slow and detailed attitude, but I am learning the art of adding more value to that short slot of time. 

    Enjoy every task with devotion and you shall be amazed at the experience. It is good to work fast and meet all the deadlines, but it is equally good to find a balance and enjoy it. Anyways you have to dedicate your time for a task, why not devote that with more attention. Enjoy every act with a smile is my take-away message from my husband’s experience.

    Another relevant aspect in today’s world is easy distraction. With more usage of social media apps, websites, smart phones and easy access to virtual connectivity, one can easily get distracted in the process. And I must admit that I am no different. This makes it essential to draw a line as per our requirement. It is another quality that I am learning from my husband to curb my fear of missing out. Less haste, more patience is my new ‘mantra’ to enjoy a better output. The aim is not to run behind more success but to walk towards more happiness.

  All this definitely sounds good when we read or write it in a philosophical mode. But, how much of it is actually possible? In order to convert it from an imaginary thought to a practical project, I am listing some of my ideas. Do add in your thoughts in the comment section. You may agree or disagree with the idea, but do share your views. Either ways, your approach will inspire a new chain of thoughts.

1.       Focus on one task at a time. Multi-task in case of time crunch, but avoid such a situation with proper planning.

2.       Time your tasks and work within the set time frame. Improvise after numerous attempts and make a customized schedule for yourself.

3.       Keep distractions away or refuse to entertain them. If you lack self-control, you can keep your phone at a physical distance to avoid temptation.

4.       Make an attempt to extract happiness from a task. This can force you to concentrate.

5.       Learn to cut stray thoughts from your mind. The habit of running into an imaginary world or walking into a dream land at the next possible opportunity can lead to wastage of time.

6.       Attitude of finishing off a task in haste to enjoy more of free time can lead to compromise in quality, rather assign yourself some free-time or me-time and enjoy it only within that slot.

7.       It is practically impossible to follow your schedule minute by minute or hour by hour, but you can always work in that direction to achieve at least some percentage of that goal.

8.       Cut thoughts of past and future. This will force you to enjoy present with full concentration.

9.       Compete with yourself to gauge your improvement. But do not compete with others while performing your tasks. Customization is the key to ensure happiness.

10.   Do not consider any task as insignificant, unnecessary or small. You may spoil the experience with your preconceived notions. After all, it is essential and hence you are doing it.

11.   It is natural to feel lazy some days. Also some tasks may seem more enjoyable than others. Find ways to make boring job interesting. Listen to music for boring chores or hunt for some temptation to continue it.

I am working on this patient approach to get more out of life. Do share your beliefs and let us inspire each other.

P.S: Dear Husband – I definitely deserve something in return for such an open appreciation. Trust me, it was not easy at all! 

The Cancer myths (because someone had to say it!)

       Talking about my heroes in the previous posts was truly an enjoyable experience as it brought me closer to their affection. I hope my readers enjoyed those humor filled punches as much as I did, while I wrapped it within my choice of words. This brings us to yet another post that is close to my heart. But does that mean ‘C’ is the only thing I shall write about from here on? Or the sensitivity of the issue makes it an exciting topic to write about? If these questions correspond with the thoughts in your mind, let me clarify my views right away. No, cancer is not the only thing I shall write on. With this post I will terminate the ‘C’ series and move on to other topics in the future.

      Coming back to the title, what are cancer myths or why should one talk about them? ‘Cancer’ is a dreaded condition that we all fear to think about. Just like everyone else, I was numerous steps away from anything to do with cancer. Apart from reading and studying about it as part of our routine curriculum, there was no reason to look at any other aspect. Hence, when life chose to give me a practical session of it, I thought about ways to share my experiences with others. 

    They say when life throws lemons at you, you can always make a refreshing lemonade. And while you can gulp down that entire lemonade yourself, you can even share it with others. An up, close and personal experience with this ‘C’ made me realize that there are numerous myths and misconceptions about the condition. Yes, it does trouble the body and mind to a certain extent, but it is not something that stops you from ‘being alive’. Till we refuse to look at it as a life-threatening disability, we cannot think beyond it in any way.

DISCLAIMER:

1.       This post is truly my own personal experience that does not represent other cancer survivors in any way.

2.       These are my opinions that may contradict with your beliefs either completely or partially. Kindly take it with a pinch of salt.

3.       Again, the myths that I have shared are ‘myths’ as per my opinion. You may not hold the same misconception or you may not consider it to be a myth.

4.       It does not represent any opinion from the medical fraternity.

   Already bored with the long disclaimer? Don’t worry. I do not intend to write a serious and emotional story about my journey. The only aim of this write-up is to contribute my opinions as they originate from a first-hand experience. I do not want to force my readers into thinking about cancer, but I believe if I am able to spread a positive message from my journey, it can definitely benefit someone, somewhere. Experiences are bits of knowledge coated with reality and hence I want to make use of them to help others either directly or indirectly. If it is able to inspire even one cancer-fighter or caregiver anywhere around the world, I shall be delighted.

1.     Myth: Cancer is a death sentence

Reality: It is a life statement

             Cancer is often regarded as a death sentence, while I beg to differ. In fact cancer is what has taught me to live. It has shown me the value of life, forcing me to live each moment fully. Without thinking about past or future, it has truly pushed me to live one day at a time with open arms. Today, I definitely savor whatever comes my way with more enthusiasm. 

      To put in simple words, it is acting as an amplifier. More feelings, more determination, more hard work, more happiness, more energy and more of everything. I was busy taking life for granted and hence this cancer has shown me the right way. I can definitely say I am living more each day than what I was before. And if you think it is too philosophical to be true, you are definitely mistaken. There is something about ‘snatching’ mentality. If you know, someone will snatch or take away something from you, you tend to hold it tight and take care of it even more.

2.       Myth: This and that must have caused cancer

Reality: There is no way to find the reason

   It is easy to sit and play the blame game. Once cancer is diagnosed, the blame can be put on anything and everything that one deals with. Food, lifestyle, career, behavior, thoughts, clothes, life choices – there is so much to spot and point. But the reality is there is no fixed way to find the root cause. While it is always beneficial to adopt a healthy lifestyle, it is not possible to pick one reason and regret. Hence, I refuse to entertain any sort of blame game or theories as none of those are true.

3.     Myth: Treatment is painful, full of medicines and makes life difficult

Reality: It is manageable with a strong support system, determination and trust

     It is definitely complex with lot of things to take care of. But that is why a good team of doctor, nurses, family and friends make everything easy. Just like any other trouble, medicines work if taken with trust and positive thought. Pain does make one weak, but it also gives ways to come out of it. After all life is what we make of it.

4.      Myth: Person turns into a patient and prisoner

Reality: Person remains what he wants to be

   Yes, it is essential to take care of health with greater care towards nutrition and rest. But it does not turn one into a bed-ridden patient or a prisoner confined within the walls of a house. It is equally possible to travel, shop, have outside food, work as before and live like any other human being.

5.      Myth: It is a matter of bad luck

Reality: It is just a matter of time

Everything pertaining to luck comes under the radar - from zodiac sign to stars, vibes of the house to style of living, everything is questioned and believed to be at fault. But I strongly believe one cannot do much about things that are not under one’s control. Rather than hunting for the cause of problem, it is essential to work on the solution. Sympathy and pity about bad luck will not change it in any way.

6.       Myth: Life is uncertain, transformed and fearful. ‘Sacrifice’ and ‘compromise’ become the middle name

Reality: This logic pertains to all

     Uncertainty of life applies to all. Situations and circumstances are unknown to each one of us, hence it is nothing different. There are several confusing choices, sacrifices or compromises to be made in future, but again that holds true for any individual. It is true that cancer does not promise anything good, but when did ‘non-cancer’ status guarantee anything great! By saying this, I do not intend to spread negativity or fear in any usual course of life, but I definitely intend to take away the ‘negative’ tag linked to cancer.

 

   Having said this, I will definitely say make healthy choices for a happy life, but do not stress yourself with what is good or bad. If one day some reports say tea or coffee is good for health, the other day it is declared bad, if one day cereals are said to be good, some other day you will find those same cereals are harmful.  If gym and yoga are good, so is simple walking or jogging. Nothing is perfect but everything is beneficial. There is no equation that guarantees a prosperous and happy life. It is up to you to figure out what works for your system. Enjoy every moment with happiness, stay positive, live life fully, seek opportunities, laugh more and live more. Make yourself happy, others will find ways to make themselves happy. Take it one day a time that is how it is meant to be.

P.S: If even for once in life, you wanted to do something for a cancer-fighter or survivor, now is the time. Share this blog among your network and let us spread some inspiration. I am definitely not someone great to preach things to others, but I am positive to make a little difference. It may help someone with their fight, and that will eventually help mine!

  

Meet my heroes- Part 3

The ‘MODA’ effect

   While our home country India is under the ‘MODI’ effect for three years now, our home in US was under the ‘MODA’ effect for three months. What is this MODA effect, you ask? Well, it was the shower of positive energy originating from my very own ‘MOM’ and ‘DAD’. This brings us to the third part of the heroic series - featuring my ‘parents’ who were nothing less than ‘GOD’ in disguise. They say parents know anything and everything about you which makes it absolutely easy for them to manage you in any type of situation. 

    

   Normalcy to the highest level was the theme of their three month stay, where they refused to entertain any of my sympathetic tears or pitiful cries. All they knew was their girl will bounce back to life, come what may. So much so they even shouted at this poor girl (not complaining, just trying to cash on my ‘Make hay, while the sun shines’ theory, yet again)

     According to California local news, there has been drastic loss in the Milpitas Farmers’ Market Sales. Thanks to two missing buyers who have gone back to their home country. These two buyers were my very own Mom and Dad who bought the best of local produce every Sunday. This has made me believe that send my parents to any part of the world and they shall be able to shop well. 

   

    Healthy cuisine, variety of dishes and unique preparations formed the end product of this shopping spree that ensured a happy appetite. But again, they did not do it for the C monster, they did it because that is what parents do. They instill sense and discipline into you, no matter what your age is. Their shouts seem so natural and usual, making you realize that they are the only ones who can point your mistake with anger, yet love you selflessly like nothing happened.

   Through my blog I would love to challenge all the researchers in the world. Get us the answers to two questions –“What are parents made of?” and “How can someone shout at you with love?” Satisfactory answers to these questions will truly lead the researchers to Noble prize as these are some tough things to crack. Coming back to the ‘MODA’ effect, when God was distributing packets of ‘sympathy’ and ‘pity', I am sure my dear parents were busy buying oranges and cilantro at the Farmers’ market, because they lack these two aspects in every form. 

  

    They ran the jurisdiction of this house in a normal manner, refusing to entertain any of my complaints. Whenever ‘C’ decided to play a little havoc, forcing me to complain or whine, they ignored it with a cool approach. This ignorance was not to discourage me, but to discourage ‘C’ and drive it away.

    The other happy members due to their visit are our refrigerator and cooking range. They are excited to make new friends such as broccoli, spinach, papaya, watermelon as these are now part of our little family (sorry bottle gourd- but you will not get an entry anymore). From broccoli stir fry to spinach varieties, ‘puran poli’ to ‘jowar bhakri’ my mom’s magic made wonders in the kitchen. It was not just my Mom who ruled the kitchen, my dear Dad deserves some credit too. His pasta, noodles and popcorn kept him in the competition.

   MODA effect left behind loads of happy memories, making us realize that we can always find light even amidst dark clouds. From playing cards where surprisingly my Dad won each time to savoring picnic lunches in parks, from driving all around town because their son-in-law needed coffee to watching serials and music programs on television, from agreeing to my demands of spicy food for bad taste buds to accompanying in adventurous long-drives, they participated in every aspect with enthusiasm and energy.

       Though I am appreciating them so much, I have one small little complaint. Thanks to them I have forgotten how to shop for groceries. Even our local Indian stores nearby were so used to these frequent buyers that they have refused to entertain me without them!

    Their short visit has granted us lot of ideas for a disciplined routine. Organizing our house frequently with convenience and making useful changes for our betterment are some of the lessons that shall stay with us for a lifetime. Though I am able to thank them for their normalcy today, I must admit that it was difficult back then. I did go through my sessions of fights and complaints with them, though they were so right on every front. When they spoke about disorganization or indiscipline, it was absolutely easy to find reasons. But maturity is when you realize that life is what you choose it to be. Their stay, attitude and approach has taught me one useful aspect- We can either choose to soak ourselves in self-pity and use situations as a shield or we can choose to find a way out and radiate happiness.

   Coming to the conclusion of my post. I was totally confused, shocked and amazed whether to take it as a compliment and show my teeth or consider it as a sarcastic comment when my Mom said “You are a fighter-cock since birth, I am sure you will fight this trouble too!”  Only your Mom can say this to you and yet get the first ‘Good morning’ message from you with a smile.

P.S: Dear Parents – Thank you for the MODA effect.
Sorry for any negative effect and apologies for not seeing you off at the airport- it was not easy and it will never be!
Also, that grocery complaint was serious, hope you find a solution soon.

Dear Nephew- Better send me some good gift, I have returned back your grandparents to you. 

Meet my heroes – Part 2

The coolest trio

   After my hubby-the great, it is time for the next hero as promised. The only difference is this post will not feature one single hero, but a group of three. I believe these three are not just my heroes. Owing to their good looks and smart features, they can appear as real actors and actress on screen someday. Before I continue this introduction and increase the suspense, let me get straight to the point. I am talking about a beautiful elder sister Ms. P, extremely handsome brother-in-law Mr. S and dashing nephew Master. Y. This SPY team are the coolest set of individuals along my treatment, converting hot chemo to a cold mojo!

   I strongly suggest that they must change their middle name to ‘Cool’ as these three are the most flexible, easy-going, non-judgmental, carefree class of individuals. Though Mr. Y is just a toddler yet, his innocent and easy vibes make me extremely happy. With their short yet happening stay, the SPY team sowed seeds of my treatment. Love, care, smiles, laughter, kindness, happiness were all poured in great quantities, while these three hurried around with their short trip.

      As this cool trio initiated the course of my treatment, I was convinced of a cooler course ahead. After their trip, the shower of love and care continues with frequent video calls, though Master. Y has started showing some attitude lately. Thanks to today’s gadgets, Master. Y is confused about the screen he should look at. I am having a tough time, while competing with Tom and Jerry as one smart phone shows my face, while the other tablet shows these cartoons. No prize for guessing my little cartoon Master. Y chooses those cartoons over me! Unless I start acting like either Tom or Jerry, I definitely stand no chance.

     Back to the main purpose of this series. Why do I call them as heroes of my treatment? Normalcy and non-judgmental treatment are the two central reasons for it. Whatever happens, their normal behavior is still the same. Hair or no hair, Master Y does not alienate from his moushi (aunt). I always wonder how this little kiddo recognizes me perfectly on a small phone screen.

     Ms. P does not let anything bother her, while she is busy exercising her right to dominate. C or no C, she has chosen to discard sympathy and pity in trash; while she is interrogating her younger sister about food, work, diet, shopping, clothes, make-up, restaurants, movies, in short everything and anything under the sun. With her strong inclination towards cosmetics and desire to decorate my face, I will not be surprised if one day she asks me before the treatment, “Have you applied make-up?” 

     Her positive attitude, faith and easy-going approach are all I need to move ahead. I am sure the gift hamper for the ‘Best elder Sister’ in the world is a ‘mansion full of perfumes’, hence my Ms. P is going great lengths to bag it. She definitely deserves it for all the love, care, attention and concern sprinkled over me. I hope she gets those numerous perfumes someday to keep her completely occupied. At least it will mean less interrogative sessions for me.

    If Master Y is fan, Ms. P is cooler, then by that logic Mr. S is an air-conditioner- coolest of all. A happy-go-lucky man with a smile and solution for everything, Mr. S is a perfect brother-in-law. After all he is the only one I can team with against Ms. P. With a common target to talk, tease and complain, bonding between with Mr. S has helped my course of treatment.

    How could I afford to be sad and down during the treatment, when this SPY team gave me a ‘treasure-hunting’ exercise at Walmart. While I was running from one aisle to another for their list, even monster C must have given up! I am secretly hoping and eagerly waiting to see a fight between Mr. S and Master Y for the same little toy car as both father-son seem to love it to the core.

   Now, since these three attractive individuals have great scope to be featured on-screen, let me use the theme of ‘scenes’ to feature their ‘heroic’ acts. I knew I could not allow C to hold me down or trouble me much, when following scenes were happening in my life.

Lights, Camera, Action!

Scene 1, Take 1:

(Ms. A and Ms. P on video-chat)

Ms. P: “Go to Dennys. Eat pancake.”

Ms. A (On face): “Ok”

            (In mind): “But why? I do not want it and monster C does not seem to like it.”

Ms. P: “Buy mascara, eye-liner, do some make-up.”

Ms. A: (On face): “Ok”

               (In mind): “Oh sure, will it scare away the monster C, then why not?”

Ms. P: “Go to Walmart, Toys r us, Bed bath and Beyond.”

Ms. A: (On face): “Yes, Yes, sure.”

               (In mind): “Someone please tell her, shopping is not a form of treatment.”

Scene 2, Take 2:

(Ms. A and Master Y on video chat)

Master Y: (excitedly) “Moushi, moushi, moushi, moushi!”

Ms. A: (Drops the sad face) “Yes Y, How are you? I am fine. I love you.”

Master Y: “ I am phine, I lo you, Bye”

When such funny conversations brighten me up, I am convinced that the SPY team is doing their job well. Wait for more heroes and their heroic acts in the next part.

P.S: SPY team, you must plan a visit soon. Not because I miss you, but our kitchen does ;) Ms. P and Mr. S can cook, while Master Y can play with the utensils!

Meet my heroes

    

     This next blog topic will be a series of posts featuring my heroes. I am sure you must be wondering what all will go into the list? Am I talking about heroes on screen who entertain us with their performances or some real-life angels who inspire us with their deeds? The answer to both these questions is in the negative. My heroes are members of my support system.

      People who are standing by me like solid rocks, while I am punching the lymphoma monster one cycle after the other. These strong pillars have refused to accept any defeat and ooze out positive essence like flowing river. All they know is one can never give up. Hence their urge towards normalcy makes this entire episode as just another phase of life. So much is the inclination towards usual life that their arguments, fights and shouting have not changed too. While I thought this ‘damsel in distress’ status will give me some hidden advantages, I was absolutely wrong. Each of my heroes have refused to treat me any differently, forcing me to be back on track as soon as possible.

   One single post will not do justice to all those who have been a part of this journey. Hence I shall feature one hero every passing week. Again the aim is not to garner sympathy or demand special attention from my readers. The purpose is to thank and celebrate their presence in my life. You do not know what you have till life throws some unexpected situations your way. I am sure none of these closed ones would expect such appreciation in the open, but then again it is my unique way to reach out to their love and care all this while. And while you are sending your wishes my way, kindly sprinkle some love on these heroes too. They are absolutely special in every way.

 In no particular order, this series will talk about my people. I shall refrain from using their real names, yet their relationship will speak for itself. My initial plan was to enlist them in this post, but I feel we all can use a little surprise. Stay tuned with me as I reveal one hero after the other.

   If you are expecting a boring thank you speech or long description of every person, let me correct you before it starts. My idea is to use some humor and spice it up as we move post to post.

  While I would have loved to start this series with my super-hero parents who gave me this gift of life, it will be too difficult to do so at this point of time. After a supportive stay of three months as they shall be traveling back to their pavilion in a few days, it will be easier to talk about them after they leave. So, let me start with my local superhero hubby Mr. N.

    There is no doubt in the fact that it is extremely difficult to appreciate your spouse openly. So before I start my words, I should congratulate myself for such a big heart! On a serious note, we often take our people for granted hence taking my hubby for granted was nothing unusual. It is only after my doctor appreciated his care when I realized that he deserves few good words.

  Call him Mr. Foodie-partner-in-crime, Mr. Know it all, Mr. 30 running on 90, Mr. Doctor in disguise or Mr. Alice in wonderland, this super-hero is my pillar of support. A strong headed person who believes everything happens for a reason, he seems to know everything. While struggling with the news or working towards the solution, all his energy was focused towards the theme ‘normalcy’. So much so that our usual husband wife nagging did not stop even for a single day. His desire to take our life just as before ensures that nothing can come in the way.

   Though our arguments are just like before, I do have an added advantage to swiftly play the ‘C’ card as and when needed. Depending on the situation, as his reactions turn from sympathy to pity or irritation to consideration, the outcome is totally worth it.

  

   If there is one thing about him that has truly helped me all this while is his ‘love’ for food. With his love for recipes, ingredients, perfection, taste and varieties, I was excited for the ‘dinner’ part of course. Though it would have helped if he actually prepared these dishes for me, his suggestions and ideas did the trick. And the habit of taking ‘Master Chef’ credit at the end kept things the way they were. Never did I get the benefit of false praises though I would have loved to. As he refuses to display any amount of sympathy or pity, I am grateful to be just the same. Though I must admit, I am still recovering from the shock that my 'Pav Bhaji' was the best he has had so far. 

  

    From his efforts to growing plants in our pots to growing hair on my scalp, my scientist is working on everything, thanks to the freely available knowledge on the internet. Whether it gives any results is a ‘wait and watch’ job, (when I last checked, we are expecting honey dew melons, coriander, saffron and cherries all in the same pot) but his ideas and thoughts are truly entertaining. Forcing one spoonful of Chawanprash right in the middle of a video session with my little nephew is his style of turning into a ‘useful’ husband.

      Preference to choose restaurants, cuisines, hang out options and movies are some of the hidden advantages at present as I get to command like a queen. After all there is a reason why the thought ‘Make hay while the sun shines’ was born.

     Another hilarious experience worth sharing is the rendezvous between my doctor and hubby-the great. Ignoring me, while Mr. N manages to grab the spotlight upon himself, their talks about travel, food, medicine or anything under the sun always dominate our sessions. As I sit quietly without any attention as desired, I cannot help but thank my stars for a funny husband like mine. Normalizing every situation and being positive is his way of dealing with the stress, while he waits for an opportunity to laugh at me or laugh with me. Either way it works for me to be next to a hero. You know you have to be normal and back in pink of health to express anger when husband says “How does this t-shirt look on me?” or “Do these shoes suit me?” right while I am dealing with post chemo trouble. Leaving my irritation aside, I wonder why does his fashion status demand so much attention all of a sudden. 

    This weird, funny, unusual yet usually expected behavior is what I want from Mr. N as we walk along the path.

  Stay tuned for the next heroes as the list is long.

P.S: If you want to be featured as a hero too, positions are open! Give me some Maggie noodles, carbonated beverages and coffee (as these are banned under Mr. N's jurisdiction) and I am all yours ;) I surely know how to make hay while the sun shines.

  

The ‘alive’ moments of life

      

    If you will go with the literal sense of this blog title, you may wonder if it has any meaning at all. Life is nothing but being alive and hence every moment of it is about ‘living’. Then how can I designate some moments under the ‘alive’ category. If each and every moment of our life journey is to be lived, is it possible to say we were ‘alive’ only during some of them? While few may argue that being alive is breathing air to sustain our birth on earth, I will definitely beg to differ.

      There is more to our life than taking in and throwing out air. As weird as it sounds, isn’t it the most accepted and assumed definition of ‘being alive’? Hence this blog post is designed to look at those special moments which go beyond the traditional mannerism of life. Moments which inspire us, moments that add happiness, moments that are out of the world, moments that make you realize that life is indeed beautiful. Away from the usual troubles, struggles, stress and worries, some special moments reinstate our belief in eternal happiness. If I am successful in putting forth my point so far, you will realize that I am talking about those ‘Aha’ moments.

   Each one of us encounter such phenomenal and unique experiences to fill our life with happiness and love. Whether it is traveling or listening to your favorite song, admiring the beauty of nature or simply dreaming with open eyes, life presents several such opportunities where you are thankful to be alive. You realize that life is indeed wonderful with its unbelievable stock of surprises. Such moments bring you closer to the joy of living. It is impossible to expect such moments along the routine trail of life. Or rather these moments are meant to be different; hence they should be unique in their own way. Specialty of such ‘alive’ moments lies in their uniqueness which do not enter into our lives easily. Only certain happy times inspire us to appreciate this birth.

     It is essential to recognize these alive moments to make the most of life. It can motivate us to look around for happiness rather than focusing over our mountain of troubles. It is rightly said that life as a whole is the greatest teacher one can ever have. Our journey teaches us several valuable lessons through the mode of experiences. Hence one such experience along my life journey has inspired me to create such moments along the way. Once cannot plan them in advance or gather fixed number in their stock to fill accomplished. The trick is to experience many such moments along the way and feel ‘alive’. Another significant aspect about these moments is ‘customization’. What appeals to you or qualifies as your happening time may not be the same for someone else. Hence hunt for your unique bag of happy moments and rejoice as you see the number increase.

    Think about your ‘Aha’ moments and pen them down. You may choose to keep it as your secret list or share it in the comment section. But either ways, I would love to know at least one of your alive moments. Now, time for my list that can inspire you to follow suit.

  Some of these moments may resonate with you and give you equal amount of happiness. While few others may not relate to you in any way. But as said, the trick lies in its uniqueness and customization.

   Here are my special moments when I am truly ‘alive’. Hunt for yours after all life is about being ‘alive’, isn’t it?

I am ‘alive’ when:

1.       ……my little nephew recognizes me during our video chat sessions and calls me ‘moushi’ (his word for maternal aunt)

2.        …. I savor first bite of food cooked by mom

3.       …. I listen to favorite parts of my favorite songs

4.       ….my written words make me satisfied and contended

5.       …. I admire waves of the beach

6.       …. The clouds, rainbow, sun and sky seem to smile at me

7.       ….calm look of water manages to calm me

8.       ….  a comedy show or movie delivers a perfect joke

9.       ….lyrics of a song seem to relate with my situation perfectly

10.   ….my prepared meals turn out exactly as I wish them to be

11.   …..I take first bite on a hungry stomach

12.   …. I read parts of a book that feel amazing

13.   ….I come across an inspirational quote that leaves me mesmerized

14.   ….a singer creates wonders with his/her notes

15.   ….. my husband cracks a joke that strikes a perfect chord (which is rare!)

16.   …..my elder sister starts the video call (excitement is to see my nephew. Dear sister, it’s not for you, just to clarify :)

17.   ….I see byline of my articles

18.   …..I find shade under scorching sun

19.   … I experience warmth of home after being out for long

Go ahead and enlist your moments. Let’s be alive now, you can always 'live’ later.  

Responsibility or opportunity? What is your take?

  

There is no doubt in the obvious fact that we look around for answers only when presented with questions.  During one such questionnaire with my mind, I was successful in stumbling upon my next blog title. Let me get straight to the question before I release my chain of thoughts. When I say responsibility or opportunity, my reference is towards the journey called ‘LIFE’.

Do you look at life as a ‘responsibility’ or an ‘opportunity’?

Should we follow our life as per instructions from an undocumented journal or should we customize it and enjoy the chance to ‘live’?

Is it your duty to live or is it an opportunity to explore?

Are you burdened under the task to live successfully or do you look forward to every moment it offers?

Let me stop my string of questions before you blame me for asking too much! 

   Having said this, I would appreciate if you could invest some thoughts on my questions and come up with your take over it. Till then, let me add my two cents over the subject as that is what bloggers do. Write, talk, write and talk again!

    My opinion tends to incline towards ‘opportunity’ as life is all about chances, efforts, dreams, hopes and happiness. Though each one of us have numerous responsibilities along the entire course of this birth, it does not mean we look at life as a ‘huge’ responsibility. It is just one part of our living, yet we are not burdened under some strict course. If we look at life as responsibility, we may lose the entire essence of enjoying it. Responsibility may bring limitations and restrictions. But opportunity stands for limitless possibilities. There is nothing in this world that can stop you from achieving your dreams, if you consider life as one big opportunity. It is within your hands to make, break, decorate or destroy. After all, life is one big ocean with expandable horizon.

 In order to enjoy life, it is essential to embrace freedom and work on customization. It is important to find out what appeals to our mind and walk along its course. Following a journal of pre-determined rules is not living. At the same time, forgetting our humanity is not living too. We have to take care of our worldly responsibilities at every stage of life, yet it is inappropriate to blame it for staying away from fun. It is possible to ascend the ladder of life, while enjoying every step in a personalized way.

   You must be wondering about the need to ponder about such a question. While fulfilling our responsibility to ‘live’, we tend to forget about the fun behind it. Routine course of our journey rarely gives us a chance to introspect and think. That is when blog posts like these force you to think. Rather than moving along with the herd, take time to figure out your course. Find out what opportunities await you. Grab the chance to live life your way, before it pulls you into its own way. We do not have control over situations and circumstances, yet we definitely have a control on our reactions to it.

   Moving over to the last phase of this blog, let me give you a feel of what life feels like as a ‘responsibility’ and as an ‘opportunity’. This may assist you, while you hunt for your answers.

Responsibility:

-          Monotonous

-          Safe

-          Pre-determined

-          Tried and tested formula

-          Boring

-          Tiresome

-          Overwhelming

Opportunity:

-          Challenging

-          Unique

-          Fun

-          Exciting

-          Experimental

-          Risky

-          Joyful

-          Satisfactory

  I am sure many of you may argue that it is not possible to categorize life into fixed teams. Yet, it is possible to give more weight-age to one over the other. Such demarcation can influence your journey, reminding you to live and not just survive. Responsibility is more about surviving as a human, while opportunity is about enjoying the pleasure of ‘being human’.

Make the most of this life as it is nothing less than a gift to treasure forever.

P.S: Your answers are awaited. It can be just a word if not an explanation, but it will really help to know what others think! 

The take- away message

     

     It is rightly said that your loved ones form the best critics, hence my husband’s critical remarks over my blog posts do not come as a surprise. A person who insisted that I should be positive in this battle, he forced me to look beyond the sad experiences. Instead of sharing the traumatic part of this story, his suggestion was to use the opportunity and share something valuable for the world to follow. “Write about what you learned from the experience rather than what the experience felt like” were his exact words that gave way to this blog title. While trying to make sense of the entire diagnosis and treatment so far, I am excited to share my take-away message with you all. Even if it inspires a single reader or motivates someone to draw sense out of their own story, it will be worth it.

    You learn to appreciate the positive aspects of any experience only when uncertainty blinds you. This is exactly what life chose to teach me as I value every single moment with open arms today. Life does not happen when we make plans about the future and craft dreams in our minds, it happens when situations and circumstances decide to play their game in the present. That is when you learn to live to the fullest as every single moment matters. I cannot endorse living in the present for others, but I can definitely share my life changing experience that deals with one day at a time.

      As my frame of reference shifts from one day to the next, I have realized true essence of the present. No wonder I feel that the saying ‘add life to your years and not years to your life’ must have been made especially for me as there is no better expression to convey my thought. I am sure I would not have thought about this if life continued on the same track as before. Just when you start taking things for granted, this beautiful gift called life chooses to shake you with an aim to appreciate its value every single day.

   It is often believed that a life-threatening condition puts a pause button to the course of journey. But, I can definitely stand strong against every single word of this popular belief as I feel it activates the ‘ON’ button. As you realize the value of every single day, it is difficult to ignore its presence or deny its significance. I have lived more after the start of this ‘C’ episode than what I would have otherwise. It is all about pumping more life into everything.

  With this, let me share my take-away message from the experience so far. I cannot claim that my lymphoma has turned me into a philosopher, but I can definitely declare that it has given me some strength to inspire someone somewhere, one way or the other.

1.       Happiness is in the present. It is here with you right now. Happiness is not something that you should postpone for tomorrow or wait for the right opportunity. It is with you to experience it along the way.

(Happiness is reading my blog right now! Why should I lose the opportunity to promote my work and take credit? …. after all make hay while the sun shines!)

2.       Fear is nothing but product of your baseless thought process. You give birth to it without any meaning or purpose. It is created as a result of living in your thoughts or imagining about the future. If you occupy yourself with the task in hand, you will realize there is no room for this fear or worry.

3.       Do not take anything for granted. Be it relationship, work, experience, adventure, asset or your surroundings. Take a moment to appreciate what you have and express your love from time to time.

4.       Make memories, gather experiences, travel, create stories, capture moments and take photographs. Do not live like a machine or limit yourself within typical specifications of a so-called ‘ideal’ or ‘perfect’ life.

5.       Learn something new or engage yourself in some fun activities. Take risks. Do something you have never done before. There is no harm in failing or embarrassment in trying something new.

6.       Accept everything that comes your way. There is a reason why it happens. Do not waste your time in trying to figure out ‘why’ it happened. You may never reach a satisfactory answer. Instead spend time in learning from what happened. It will definitely stay with you forever.

7.        Spend some quality time with yourself. As much as you like to be with your family and friends, it is equally important to talk to yourself. Engage in some positive activities and listen to your thoughts.

8.       Learn to forgive and forget. You may disagree with your loved ones or get angry with their conduct, but their love is definitely larger than these little misunderstandings which shall melt away with time.

I agree it is easy to preach but difficult to follow. Yet, listing out this take-away message is my first step towards following it. Do share your views or add your thoughts to this list. Together we can inspire one another to spread happiness all around.